I feel as though this rehabilitation period has done me some good, along with the trouble it has caused. I wonder who I'd have to speak without about family visitation.

It seems my father has decided I need to meet his fiance.

I'm not entirely thrilled to be honest. I guess I kept hoping that he and my mother could work things out.

But yeah- gotta look into that.

So my father wants to fly all the way out here and visit me for a weekend with his girlfriend.

Who would I have to talk to about seeing about leaving for a few days? Although, this is not a summer camp or any such thing, so I'm not even sure if they allow that...it might just be a supervised visit.

Otherwise, things are going pretty well. ^_^

Lame weekend.

Doctors figured out what I gotta do to get better though...so that's nice.

Apparently years of abusing certain things lead to some fun imbalances. Anti-depressants (haha- do I seem depressed? I didn't think so) and Methadone. At least I got to talk to mom on the phone a while. Dad's dating again. That's ...yeah, I'm not sure what to think about that.

Atobe- can I get Ai back from you tonight? I miss her.

I don't wanna go.
Who is screaming like that under my bed at night? I thought there weren't any girls allowed in the room...


(Ooc:Strikes deleted. He's still a little off in his cute little head)

I think my brain is oozing out of my ears. Seriously- that was not a good time for a panic attack. Sorry if I spazzed out on anyone.

Edit: 私は私が私の病院の訪問までのこれらの新しい丸薬を、一日に三回取らなければならないことを推測する。 私はそれらを、それら少しを感じさせる私にブランク好まない。 しかしそれは、私考える助けている。 とにかく。

Wakashi I'll be sleeping in the infirmary just tonight. I will be gone for a day or so in a week too.

Mr. Itsuki, Miss Fuji sent you a note...I Was wondering if you would be able to still go with me to Roswell General. If not, it's okay- I'm just a little nervous.

私は病院を憎む。


(ooc: Translations: I guess I have to take these new pills, three times a day until my hospital visit. I don't like them, they make me feel a little blank. But it's helping, I think. Anyway...

I hate hospitals.)

I want to make something with clay...I should see about doing that. ^_^

Maybe they'll let me just take a little back to the room so I can work on it before lights out.

Going to be an interesting weekend.

Tomorrow we go to the AIDs clinic as punishment. I'm concerned they might have problems with me since I have all thse cuts on my arms. I guess I should ask when I get there. Yeah-

( Research )

I think I'm over another bad spot. ^_^

Edit: It looks like I put on about 3 pounds since I got here. ^_^

My jacket is ruined...

It's covered in paint splotches all over...

I can't believe I forgot it in study hall when I left for chores-
I came back and it was ruined...now I know how Dan feels- this is totally lame.

At least I had my hoodie with me. But still- I hope I don't get in trouble for having messy clothes.

Hope you are feeling better guy from the stables. Sorry I had to be mean to you. ^_^ And not remembering you at first. I think I remember when I met you the first time, your name was Moshimoro or something, wasn't it?

Hope this bitemark fades from Wakashi before I check back in the the nurse for my withdrawals...I don't want us getting in trouble.

(ooc: Strikes were supposed to be deleted- just strikes due to error- but now they are...but anyone who wanted to see it before they were deleted- enjoy!)

We did it! Hiyoshi and I made love! Granted the bathroom wouldn't have been my first place to consider this for a first time with someone I actually care about- but still! It was great! I thought for sure it would be one of those things where he liked it and I just had to pretend to keep him happy too since it would be fair since I'm that happy just kissing him and sleeping near him. But I loved it! I'm so happy!

Welcome back to the dorms, Hiyoshi-kun. ^_^


(ooc: Strikes were typed and immediatly deleted XD)

O_O

I'm up! I'm up! Slept in! Gotta rush, I have mass!

I would like very much to stop with the fever, the throwing up, and this whole messed up head thing. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

I guess I should say that it helps having someone in the same boat, but it makes me feel worse knowing other people here are feeling this bad too. At least the company is nice...but I think I should like to get back to my own bed-

I sort of talked to Hiyoshi...so that's good.

I still need to call my mom. I miss her so much.

I think I might see about going back to the dorm tonight.

I think it is all in my head. It should be all in my head. I can handle this. I think I can handle this. At least I managed to get some counceling last night so I didn't have to bug Miss Fuji- she works too hard.

If it's all in my head why do I still feel like hell? Maybe I should go to the church. I like the church. It is peaceful there. I'm sorry I ignored you yesterday Hiyoshi- I was not feeling so great. I'm really sorry.

I swear I'll try my best not to mess up any more. I just had a little bit of a bad end to my first week, I ran out of mental and emotional steam. I think I can continue on and succeed.

( Private )

Miss Fuji? I think I might be getting the flu a little. If it gets much worse can I get something for it?

Everything hurts and that Black Horse is evil...seriously...I didn't think horses were predators. Then it chased me for a good 30 minutes. But the stables are looking pretty good and Syuusuke is a pretty nice guy. Mr. Sakaki is probably right- I just have to keep busy.

Though- I might still take Mizuki's advice. It can't hurt things any more then they already are.

(ooc: Strikes deleted...he does not want to whine. XD)

 Well- maybe things are turning around again. If they keep turning I might get motion sick. ^_^ 
But at least this is a good thing, I think. It's something new that I've never dealt with before, but I really think it's all going to be alright. ^__^

Another day to go, GAMBATTE! 

My roots are starting to show...this isn't good.


私はとても下肢が不自由である。 私は私がバイオリンのひもの私の手を切ると信じることができない。 それはまだ刺す。 私はちょうど嬉しいInui私を我慢するには十分に素晴らしいである。 いたる所に興味深い人々がある。 私はまだそのうちのいくつかを時々理解しない。 私はちょうど事が解決することを望む。 私はそれらが私が銀に戻って私の毛を染めることを可能にするかどうか疑問に思う。 それは全体にわたって突き出る黒い根と不可解に見る。


(ooc: Translation: I am so lame. I can not believe I cut my hand on a violin string. It still stings. I'm just glad Inui is nice enough to put up with me. There are interesting people all over the place. I still don't understand some of them at times. I just hope things work out. I wonder if they will let me dye my hair back to silver. It looks weird with the black roots sticking out all over.) 

 I actually slept pretty good last night. Still in my day clothes, but considering the circumstances, I think I can let it slip this once. I'm really looking forward to practice again. I do have one concern though. I do not need sex ed...seriously. I mean- I am literally a professional. I could probably teach the teacher things about it from experience. So it seems silly to need to take it here too. I did go to school and learn it already, plus I got a reminder crash course from the hospital staff after the accident. Granted that was very embarassing.

Oh, thank you Inui-san. Nice to meet you Mizuki-san. ^_^

Everyone have a wonderful Sunday! Hope to see you at mass! God bless! <3

私は眠る必要がある私は眠ることができない。 私はどうしても心地よくなることができないし、別の毛布を必要とし、それから熱い… を得る。 私は助けられる丸薬を考える。 私は知らない。 これは私に完全に新しい。 私はAiをすることができないまたはに試みなさい。 彼女は皆を目覚めさせるかもしれないし、虫は。もどって来る。...





((ooc: Translation:
I need to sleep but I can not sleep. I just can not get comfy and I need another blanket and then it gets hot...ugh. I think the pills helped. I do not know. This is all new to me. I can't play Ai, or try to. She might wake everyone up and the bugs are back... 


[he is just having a bad night] ))